a walk to be remember

Patellofemoral pain syndrome now i noe what's excatly my penyakit is... dh terlalu lame aku tanggung ( 3 years kowt ), and FINALLY, the name was annouced.. my reaction when doc said it was like, o~kay.... like i dun felt anything bout it.. but then,when i get home, when i think bout it back, suddenly my tears can't stop from running out.. i dun mind to get that PFPS.. but it's just,bila mengimbas kembali memori hidup aku (ayat xbley blah) bru yg aku sedar,hidup aku sentiase diuji dgn pelbagai penyakit... kulit terlampau lagi melampau snsitive,resdung, kne infection kuman ( plg worst n gilak sakit,seyes ) and now...this.. system immune badan aku lak sgt3 lah menyedihkan.. hospital dh mcm rumah kedua kowt bg aku.. but like what He said, “Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan;  'Kami telah beriman' ('I am full of faith to Allah') sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya K...

اسسالاموالايكوم   terlalu byk yg difikirkan.. terlalu byk yg perlu dikisahkan.. semuanya perlu dijaga dgn baik.. agar tiada yg terluka... tp, walau apa pun yg mendatang, ingat, you have your right to choose ur own life.. how to feels ur life through ur own ways... jgn terlalu dikisahkan akan perasaan org lain sehinggakan hati sendiri terseksa... mengapa perlu diambil tahu perihal org lain? mengapa perlu dikisahkan dgn rezki org lain? just believe in yourself, that Allah already set for ur own faith.. so dun worry too much.. dun care too much.. just listen to heart.. do whatever you feels right based on ur mentally not ur nafsu... biar kita dipandang hina oleh penduduk bumi, asalkan diri sentiase menjadi perbualan penduduk di langit.. biar hina di mata manusia, asalkan mulia di mata Yang Maha Esa.. biar sekarang kita x menerima pangkat atau kedudukan  yang kononnya hebat di mata manusia, asalkan di akhirat kelak...

saya taknak awak pergi... jujur saya ckp, saya taknak awak pergi... heard u say that, my tears cant stop from coming out.. yes,it's true that dream can do comes true.. but why with scarifices? kenapa aku tak boleh capai impian aku tanpa perlu berada jauh darimu... memang benar,peluang sebegini hanya datang mungkin once in a lifetime... tapi.. itulah,untuk jadikan sesuatu impian itu menjadi kenyataan pasti memerlukan pengorbanan.. 5 tahun org kate kejap je.. tapi berada jauh darimu walau sesaat  sahaja pun sudah sperti terlalu lama... apatah lagi 5 tahun... kalau dlm negara boleh la jumpa lagi, tapi ni utk berada di luar negara dlm masa 5 tahun.. Allah.... i'm doing it bcoz of Allah,my family and most important thing, for us.. never ever leave me..

5th of april 2011.. as u might noe it was my besday.. but to be honest, the besday that i was celebrated last year was much2 better than dis year i guess... mane taknye,3x kowt smbut last year.. rindu lak nak trime byk2 adiah. huhu.. tahun neyh.. aku smbut dgn deraian air mate kowt.. sebab ape? only God noe... but,we can't always get want we want.. right? anyway.. eventhough dat my eyes had been a little bit swollen on my besday (dont ask me why) but.. nevertheless,it was still a hepi-besday-day for me.. kat fb ja 80 lebih wish.. thru phone g..text lagi.. awww.. terharu mak =P yes,i might cried bcoz of u, but i'm get an extra smile also, bcoz of u.. so,you're forgiveable... i'm dedicated this appreciation to......... marlisa haziqah for the exclusive watch sofia izanie for the sweet card faris harun for the such loveable video( post in youtube plak tue!)  and for all u that remember my besday.. sarang ha mi da ^^ video from OPPa !   <3 ...

a relationship is like a rose how long its lasts no one knows love can erased an awful past love can be yours you will see at last  to feel that love its makes you sigh but to have it leave you would rathers die you hope you have  found that special rose  cause you love  and care for the one you choose..

rumah dh siap rennovate.. okay..that's a good news.. yelahh..sengsara woo hidup 3mgu dlm alam kebisingan.. now, tinggal org nk cat rmh je... boleh tahan lagi.. mcm2 warne ade,luar dlm segalanya ada di sini.. kikiki tapiiiii.. der is more bad news than goods... 1st, uncle tue boleh lak pula salah cat warna bilik...! fuuufuffufuuf...sabo jelah aii.. 2nd,all of my joints are in critical condition.. mana tak nya, 3 org je yg ade nak kemas satu rumahh.. angkat katil,turun bwh.. katil baru naik atas.. ngan segala2 stuff,perabot,baju2..buku.. nak susun balik etc..etc..etc.. after rennovate,i even can't recognise my house...haha dh xde verandah dh, jdi bilik pengantin sudah.. to become worst, sakit lutut makin la bertmbah.. and i'm also the one who broke the big mirror at hall.. wala..wala.. okay,dah boleh nanges sekarang.. OMMa........~~(T_T) the old home  now it turns to............ tadaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

day by day.. its getting different ryte now.. a part of me still losing her soul... while others are trying to pull myself to step forward into the new life.. trying to forget the past, i'm just trying to focus on my future.. tp tue la yg wat kan aku lg pening skrg... too much worried of sth, i guess that's my trademark... dentistry,.. that the course that i really want.. tp to get it, i'm not very sure which way is the best to get it.. i'm really3 afraid to take an acti0n as it might ruined my future... i'm just dun want to feels upset for the second time.. but i still believe, either asasi,matrik or even dip, HE will choose the best way for me,, thats, i always pray for.. here,  eventhough i might not be the old me, who always bersemangat while doing anything.. but thanks to everyone around me, at least i'm moving forward... words from abg asyraf syazriq, kalau perlu menangis, menangislah sepuas hati kamu.. tapi pastikan ini adalah tangisan kamu y...