story of my life - part V

19th May 2017

this was the other date that could tear my heart into pieces..

the day when i lose you..forever..

[to my second dad]

someone asked me,sbgai pengamal perubatan,what would u do, if u see one of your family member is dying and not in the hospital? would u try to save them? or will u let them 'go' properly? bc as medical team, u already know the emergency sign n symptoms but as a muslim, u also learn the symptom for a person that is having sakaratul maut..

yesterday was too sudden..a part of me wants to resuscitated him..part of me just trying to accept the facts that nothing can be done for a person that is having sakaratul maut..sakaratul maut itself is too painful for a person to bear it..apatah lg any compression on his body..and the best i can did was checking the pulse..as to confirm the time of death..

if it was written by Allah, nothing can stop it..tak akan terlewat walau sesaat..xkn tercepat walau sesaat..but im glad that He took you dlm keadaan yg plg mulia yakni selepas solat, dlm keadaan bibir sntiasa berzikir hingga saat akhir,peluh di dahi,dan pd hari yg paling mulia hari jumaat..moga ani juga akan menyusuli dalam keadaan yg sama Pak Yud you are the best uncle i ever had..always treat me like one of your daughter and always be there when i need somebody..berehat lah dengan tenang as that was your last request..to have a rest..for a while..

“Tiap-tiap yang berjiwa akan merasakan mati. Dan sesungguhnya pada hari kiamat sajalah disempurnakan pahalamu. Barangsiapa dijauhkan dari neraka dan dimasukkan ke dalam surga, maka sungguh ia telah beruntung. Kehidupan dunia itu tidak lain hanyalah kesenangan yang memperdayakan“.

- Ali Imran ; 185 -

اللَّهُمَّ اغْفِرْ لَهُ وَارْحَمْهُ وَعَافِهِ وَاعْفُ عَنْهُ

# cukuplah kematian itu sebagai satu peringatan
# gonna miss your smile so much